in your dreams,

this is random.
but i was thinking.

should i convert to Christianity?

let God tell me the answer through actions i do.

bye

http://fathope.tumblr.com/

bye

haiiiiiiiiiiiiii egg tarts out there.
tart is my new favourite word *winks
i heard someone say it as i was walking past her, no, not eavesdropping.
it's very nice to articulate.
everyone say with me,
"TTTTTAAAAARRRRRRTTTTTTT-SSSSSSS" *emphasize on yr 'ts'*

this week haven't been a good week.
got myself into trouble thrice. ugh i don't like to get in trouble.

i like to be nerd.

monday was late for school even tho school starts late. tsk i broke my record, i'm never late for school in my whole entire life.
got the latecoming slip, the slip was....
nothing special. i thought it would be a like a very official slip of paper.
i expected more royal-ty. LOL

i wrote 8.15AM but it's supposed to be 8.50AM and if i write 8.15AM i'm not late since school starts at 8.35AM.
gosh good if you get what i mean.

english period was first and i was kicked out of class.
and sad case,
"and i've been noticing your attitude, YOU ARE UNDER MY RADAR."

ouch. her eyes damn scary.
bigger than mine by x1000.

thursday had hmt paper but we skipped school in the morning.
got scolded. and i swear i'm remorseful.

why do it in the first place? argh

and we were lucky (read: not), the others got reprimanded by the OM and we were scolded by mrs amba, mrs terrence and mdm roz 'cuz they were there.
oooops.

i think we're doing detention after eoys. or get taken out for post exam activities and do revision.
shit. i want my post exam activities damnit.

friday we didn't have school, joy to the world.
saturday we had school, i think ms jane forgot that i'm under her radar 'cuz she answered a question of mine with a neutral tone.
sunday is tomorrow. i wonder what will happen tomorrow.

here are some overdued photos from mooncake fest @ sch, friday's mugging session (OMG MY NAME WAS ANNOUNCED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE JURONG EAST LIBRARY), fetching my sister back home and today's mugging.



i was experimenting if i should smile with my teeth shown or not.
ARGH I THINK I SHOULD NOT SMILE ALL SO UGLY.



wo zhi dao wo xiao shi hou hen ke ai
i like my outfit! high waisted siol



perfect book
check out my bikini top earring. and no, you can't see it, it looks like two circles from here.



cool shiat.



"i'm fine"





how people think of such cool quotes

"It's a lot easier to say you're mad than to admit that you're hurt.

btw i act like i don't care but actually i care.
i just need to learn how to let go.
you don't care, don't you?

okay bye bye why am i still here.
i should hit the books right na na na~

after eoys,
i'm going to go shopping with cindy, chunni, who else wants go shopping with me? :D :D :D

You're coming back down and you really don't mind,
You had a bad day ,
You had a bad day

wah today i can die. shouldn't have woke up for school.
shouldn't have wake up at all.
nah not about ms jane kicking me out of class.

oh ya i'm under her radarrrrrr O:



hi world,
i am a very selfish girl.
i want everything good to myself.
yesssss i am selfishhhhhhhhhhh.

think again,
you want gooooood things to yourself too.

everyone's selfish,
so are you! :D

ciao ciao maybe going for a jog will make me feel happier,

IM SUCHA LONER AWWWWWW.
FURTHER AND FURTHER FROM EVERYONE :(

tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

有好几次我都想挽留

苦求也没有用　就当做是寂寞

只想要告诉我　谁是你的最爱

其实你很爱他　对我的惩罚　

说你没有想他　是可怜我吧

我已没有藉口　只能放手　

不能奢求　你说爱我爱他

其实你很想他　就说出口吧

我已不想多说　呜住耳朵　

不想再次听到你说　你很爱他

stumbled onto this song on ipod. fir's ni hen ai ta.

bye bye today is not a very good day.

sometimes it doesn't feel good to be alone.
'cuz i know i can't survive being a loner.

i can't accept that fact that people don't care.
i'm not strong, and the strongest person on earth cannot have no friends, no love, and no care.

aw sucha loser

i'm an epitome of pathetic, seriously :/

hi why i am still here at 1AM.
school in 5 hours time.
damn damn damn.

yesterday was much of a satisfaction.
i studied from morning to evening, then i slept for 2 hours or so.

exams exams exam, make until people want go out also cannot. tsk

long holiday is worst, but selemat hari raya my malay peeps :)
hehe luv ya bet yall enjoyed yr day.

i didn't know i can shop jurong point for almost 3 hours or something.
wow



my mum think she cute :D



i think i cute.



5.10$ only. no wonder my mum ask me come here eat.



cool red bento box



inside even cooler.
my bento got a lot of seaweed shreds!

yum dum dum



for my face



for my eyes



i won't go blind already :)

changing to specs now, hehe i can't waitttttt

and my degree decreased somehow. the person say my contacts degree too high for me

the person who helped me to check my eyesight asked me to open my eyes bigger even though i enlarged my eyes like crazy already.
pathetic huh :(

sunday went jogging at japanese garden.
saw so many angmoh and banglah. i think there was an event or something

i decided to geh kiang and asked my sister to jog to chinese garden with me.
ended up getting lost, and not knowing our way back to japanese garden.

see next time i still dare to geh kiang somemore not



days towards the holy date



uh huh you like i like everyone like :p



i like my dress,
so i will post it here even if you don't like to see



ji de chi's mango beancurd very yummy
so yellow the mango



i wanted to buy another shade of red but i went to buy the orange one 'cuz i thought it was red.
i think my eyes got problem, can't differentiate colors



i so cute last time hor



awwwww



i so strong carry everything under my table home myself 8)



why not study about me



the numbers of songs i listened since the start of studying.
not bad huh






i don't look like a happy kid do i?

oh and today yvette study group play prank on me i very sad now.
next time don't help yvette make notes already.
:P


boyyyyy,

when you're studying, you say you give up, it's easy.
when you're in love, you say you give up, it's almost impossible.

it's a different kind of 'give up', you know?
when applied to different things, the attitude towards 'giving up' changes.

suddenly thought of this on my way home. haha i feel very cheem :)


they tell me i'm too kind too nice people like to take advantage of me.
true or not



i think so too leh.
and everything i hear this, i am not happy,
makes me wonder what i am in others' eyes.

:/

sentosa photos.
i tried the LUGE twice!!!
omg it's so high and jasmine's a brave brave girl~







my bonnie lies over the ocean



my bonnie lies over the sea



it was scarier than i thought.





i wore the helmet the wrong way. no wonder it kept falling off.



my first ride. my signature fake smile :)
was spamming fs all the way up.
closed my eyes for 80% of the time up there.
money well spent lol



2nd time up there i opened my eyes 50% of the time



CHAMPION



scary not



we're higher than emergent layers



check out the canopy layers. they're better

btw seventeen magazine is out! so elated, like finalllllllllly



... uh huh 8)

i stumbled onto these when i was clearing my documents.
haha. ndp. great memories.


they're all part of the list, things that we miss.





pwb's new mv so hot.

i don't think anyone's still reading this space.
i haven't blogged for close to a week.

if you are still reading this,
you love me a lot huh? :p

anyway this week was birthday week!!
so many humans birthday.

and school holiday didn't seem like one at all.
had been returning to school for half the week.
liars liars liars. tsk

monday we had oral.
i guess i was fine. the first thing my examiner told me was, "Jasmine i think your skirt is too short".
uh-oh.

after oral went to vivo with cindy to wish Neo liping :D
hehe luv this girl a lot although she is too man for words.

i spent like 15 mins there and i went home. didn't want to catch movie with the rest.
so i loner went home :))))))))



i look like a smoker here. severe eyebags and dull crumpled face O:

tuesday (happy birthday alex!) had to skip bio remedials for some heritage trail.
arghhhh i hate to miss lessons (kiasu) but eventually we were still disqualified halfway thru walking in the midst of chinatown (or idk where).
OOOOOPS i think i and the girls made a pact and i'm supposed to say we won so we went back to school early xD





like damn hardworking, still went back for math rmd.

wednesday (happy birthday allyson, juehao, wanlu & yanshan!) went for learning journey.
jurong island, what a sacred place. need to go some custom-like passageway.

morning attempted to get class tee done but people working at queensway are wayyyy too lazy.
most of the shops were closed O:
thought we were late but taxi works the magic :) early by 1 min!

the plants were amazing. it's like "booms" (hahaha k ris low mode, no i am no right to laugh at people tsk).
iris and i were so smart :p hi tech people huh 8-)





and why is peizi always looking so shocked 24/7?



i got entry to jurong island you have?

thursday (happy birthday yuni's bro!) morning went to japanese garden.
dad did taiji while we jogged.
woooo feels good after exercising :)

my dad got super internal powers i not joking.



my dad is better than your dad.

i forgotten what happened on friday (happy birthday melissa!).
i think i just stayed at home.
oh i went jp. with my sister and mother.
we ate lai lai, not very yummy.

and i think my mother and i fought. as usual.
and i think i cried. in public. silently.

wah i so stressed.

saturday sentosa with cindy and other people :)
peektures soon.

today went jap garden again.
i had sushi for my brunch :) yumz yumz.
craving for it since forever.



slept like a pig.
mugggggggggggged. O:



i am my own motivation.



yoghurt place ftw ^^






i want many many many balloons. UP fantasy :)


btw i need to shop after eoy.
15th october 2009. this holy date.

i will jump for joy and leap all the way to ion or something.
anywhere.
the blogshop stuffs out there are super pretty.



wait...
i need $$$ first.

:)

TOMORROW'S SCHOOL. LET'S SAY YAY.
tsk.

Run singapore. thought being in the cheering team might be more fun.

and yes, random lyrics under each photo again :/



Nothing's wrong



just as long as



you know that someday I will



Someday, somehow



gonna make it allright but not right now



I know you're wondering when



You're the only one who knows that.



azalea pinched me, and why am i pinching my fat cheeks too.


why do i get this feeling that i'm losing hope.

Camp was great.
minus all my stupid anger management issues that i managed to clarify already (:,
plus all those ahem stuffs (only i know!),
multiply all the love from all my secondary 3s (really luv ya dearly),
divide all the tears (big girls don't cry :D).

pop was nice, i like my video :)
hehehehehehhe self praise.

confidence walk was funny. i and cindy were thinking of how to scare people.
i think i generated a lot of ridiculous-ttm-kind-of ideas. tsk.
but somehow scared some girls.

i laugh out loud whenever someone is freaked out.
sadistic or what :)

i like water games, i like to roll here and there with amyraa and other peeps at the parade square.
i didn't know i can do yoga that well :D yayyyy next time got chance i can demo let yall see.


many emotions swimming within me during this camp i must say..

realised how much my parents are to me too.
i cried more than usual in this camp. somehow, the tears just roll.

not bad, i can cry.

also, sec 3s i really luv yall dearly, each one of yall. see how much we teared yet had fun,
that truly shows how much we luv each other and our cca ♥



why so act cute









he he he he he



my dear junior so nice make hot milo for me when i was :'(

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i like to dry the floor with that floor scraper kind of thing.



i know you super scared of me



next, SCREAMMMMMMMMMMM
(p/s: I know my long hair very chio, is actually a black pants on my head O:)



somehow, i feel i'm missing so much.
so much i'm doing things out of my boundaries,
finding ways to get things the way i want,
no one ever knows.



it's pretty shocking huh, to know that somebody out there is going that extra mile for you.



to know that someone out there has always been by your side, you just didn't know,



to know that someone out there needs a little more time and courage to get things done great.

can you tell me,
why are you so good?
truly, madly, deeply.


also,
my parents deserve children with better grades.

why am i so selfish?

so finally.

asean. dance. was. good.
:)
sorry i don't have a camera, so all the photos by cindy. lol so almost all the photos got cindy's face hahaha


morning still had tuition, then over to chunni's house to help her with stuffs, then cindy's house to get ready for dance.

thx cindy's sister :)



stupid my yellow butterfly clip is still on my dress.



with make up. my face is not oily yay.





saw nicole, almas and chunni at the main lobby first. haha like so glad to see them.



cindy almas chunni. hehe awesomezzzz people



cindy yanmei jefferson marvin jiawen. asean scholars unite! :)



cindy peach. good job peach!



jingyue cindy.



ezzul. he so cool that night worzx



cindy allen zhihan. the guys went shopping together, heard they all got same pants O.O



yuni jayden cindy juehao allen. why am i shortest HAHA



cindy jiawen.



iris dee cindy. dee look like snow white



dee cindy. eh my fringe not bad here ^^



kahleong. biggest loser haha kidding



adeline. haha i and her practically screamed when we saw each other luvvvv



adeline yuni.my legs open too wide :/



juehao. finally someone's face oilier than mine :)



nicole. why only one photo :(



allyson cindy. allyson so different, hotttt haha



amanda . yr teeth don't look crooked here what.



#1



#2



#3 fisheye not nice FAIL



#3 :D


lol my holey fringe my oily face and i need to learn how to smile naturally HAHA
camera phobiaaaaaa O:

more over at facebook.

that night was really a good good night~


and i forgot to mention yesterday had my best ACES day :D
haha. *wink wink


i like dova's fb status,
"pretending can be a solution".

Jasmine got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...
... that nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be.

You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future.... God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

(Y)

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,



Over again,



Don't make me change my mind,



Or I wont live to see another day,



I swear it's true. (L) (K) (Y)



almost 8 years, half of my life,



greatest friends to keep forever.



we are emo,



maybe it's only me :p



and thenghui need to refrain from growing any taller.

or should i refrain from growing any shorter O:

XIANYUN AND JIAYING WHERE ARE YOU :(
i missed them la. they left earlier 'cuz i had some briefing.



the proposal was an awesome show.

super sweet. i could literally feel myself smiling throughout the show.
well, 'cept for the sad parts.

three days ago, i loathed her.
three days later, i fell in love with her.

yes and they got married.

so sweet :)


and i finally got the photos for asean dance.
will update soon.

ASEAN DANCE WAS AWWWWWWWWWWWFULLLLLLLY AWESOME :D
luv it a lot.
much better than i thought.

haha although had to go home early :(
but but but. thanks cindy and sister for the makeup and everything hehehehe.

I want more events like thattttt.
everyone looked so glam and pretty and handsome (and hot, yes nicole texted me to tell me she's hot HAHA).

but i don't have all the peeeektures with me.
cindy very smart. only send me photos selectively ROARRRRR.
i hate suspense. have to ask her send me tmrw.

btw my face look damn oily in all the photos i think.
it's like.... glistening. omigosh so orhxin O:

in real life i have better skin condition okayyyyy ^^
shall blog more about asean dance after i get all the photos.


mean while,
ikea is a great place to be arty farty :D

i like ikeaaaaa. hehe more photos (of me and sister wth? who want see sia) over fb.



There's some things we don't talk about,



Rather do without,



And just hold the smile.



Falling in and out of love,



Ashamed and proud of,



Together all the while.



i like to emo. :)
uh huh. over-rated. *rollllls eyes*



my sister said, "use this to flatten your stomach."
good idea.



10 balls for 8 bux. yum yum yum



and i luv my blog url.


i will cherish. :)

back to physics now. *yawn*

hehe show off i got pan wei bo ez link card sticker and my IC.

i look so weird in my eye-see :(

"i don't feel cold 'cuz i got a lot of fats."
"eh i fat also but i feel cold."

"your fats not functioning la."
ROFL.


and i didn't get to go shopping with cindy at orchard, but we didn't our brows at clementi.
i suspect it is due to the bus 78 ride from school to clementi :(
waste time only.

brows.
threading. hurts. like. crazy.



got my heels. like finally.
supposed to go ikea, but discarded the idea since it was too late :/
my fault again?


wow i hope tomorrow would be a great day.
"tomorrow night's gna be a good good night~"



later must rehearse wearing heels. :/

***

LAUGH OUT LOUD.

GUESS WHO :)
click to enlarge.

God wants to tell me that...
there are no accidents.

What you think of as accidents are simply your conversations with God that you haven't yet been able to understand. But take heart, all happens in God's will and every conversation has deep meaning for you.

haha i like this. (Y)


if only my life was like a computer,
i could cut and paste all the good moments,
i could select all and save all the awesome things (ie A1s ^^),
i could undo and redo all my wrongdoings and good deeds,
i could select and delete all the unnecessary people, obstacles, thinking, feelings in my life right now.

If only.
I could.
I would.

edit my life all over again.

REEEEFRESSSSHHHHH~